你我的回忆2009

2009年的确是个精彩且特别的一年，今年我有了4S1，原来4S1是那么的可爱，是那么的活泼的！全部都是热血沸腾的少年，他们都胸怀大志，又有慈悲的老师领大旗，带领我们再创高峰。我终于知道了，我也不再感到自卑伤心了。我时常都在问我自己为什么我们班就是比人家差，比人家逊色，我一直在问...一直在问...直到有一天，我上到了中四，我才惊觉原来我的班4S1的确很与众不同，原来我们也有出头的一天。2008年的年尾，我们拿了PMR成绩，我们是多么的雀跃。为什么呢？一群不出众的野草终于开出了迷人的花朵来了，我们打破了记录！原来我们也是一样办到的，我们4S1 09’并不是野草，我们也是一朵朵亮丽的花！我们 并不是野马，原来我们也是一只只的汗血宝马！今天来到了2009年度的最后一个学期的最后一天，我觉得自己真的享受了彼此在一起的时间。坦白说，我读了那么多年书，今年真的是我最开心最享受的一年。我看到了同学的改变，看到了自己的改变，大家一起同甘共苦。我们都做到了，我们要做的更好！“人生有一知己，死而无憾”，更何况我遇到了你们，我的好朋友，我真的会很不舍得你们的。今天开了一个大食会，大家都很开心，心中的不舍更是流露在脸上，毕竟大家都是一起打仗的战友，所以我们的友情简直就是坚贞难断，但愿以后大家少见面了之后我们还是能互相联络。虽然我在班上很多时候我都是自己一个静静的，但是我真的很在乎你们，你们都是我的好同学，好朋友。我更是不舍得你，我的好兄弟孙信！（松升别吃醋）今天拍了照，我看着那照片，越看就越开心，我真的觉得自己很幸运，可以有两个那么好的兄弟，我们S1三侠的友谊将不会变质。朋友们！你们给我听清楚！以后遇到什么困难我都会拔刀相助，此言即日生效，无限期！想到了你们一一的样子，我的心里都坦然的一笑了，你们真的给了我很多的回忆，我不是很会说话，但是我想跟你们说声谢谢！献给我4S1的朋友！也想向你们道歉，因为这一年来也许让你们不开心了。4S1，我爱你们。因为你因为我，4S1才得以如此的团结快乐！感恩有你们！

缘

此作并非本人作品，纯粹向与大家分享...我相信世间一切皆一个缘字. 种下怎样的因, 便有怎样的果.

从前有个书生, 和未婚妻约好在某年某月某日结婚. 到那一天,

未婚妻却嫁给了别人. 书生受此打击, 一病不起. 家人用尽各种办法都无能为力,

眼看奄奄一息. 这时, 路过一游方僧人, 得知情况, 决定点化一下他.

僧人到他床前, 从怀里摸出一面镜子叫书生看.

书生看到茫茫大海, 一名遇害的女子一丝不挂地躺在海滩上. 路过一人, 看一眼,

摇摇头, 走了....又路过一人, 将衣服脱下, 给女尸盖上, 走了....再路过一人,

过去, 挖个坑, 小心翼翼把尸体掩埋了............

疑惑间, 画面切换. 书生看到自己的未婚妻. 洞房花烛,

被她丈夫掀起盖头的瞬间...书生不明所以.

僧人解释道, 那具海滩上的女尸,吗就是你未婚妻的前世. 你是第2个路过的人,

曾给过他一件衣服. 她今生和你相恋, 只为还你一个情.

但是她最终要报答一生一世的人, 是最后那个把她掩埋的人,

那人就是他现在的丈夫. 书生大悟, 唰地从床上做起, 病愈 !


几年前, 初恋的爱人去世时, 我痛不欲生. 有朋友就找来这故事开导我,

让我释怀不少. 也许, 她来到这个世界上, 就是为了还我一片情吧.

她做完了她想做的事, 就走了. 以后, 我都用这个故事开导身边的朋友.

缘这个东西, 是最不可思议的.

电影"不见不散"的主题歌这样唱道"这世界说大就大, 说小就小.

就算是我们今生的约定, 也要用一生去寻找...."

我们都在参加一场宏大的化装舞会, 熙熙攘攘的人群里, 我们寻觅着,

渴望着....那指间, 相触时被电击的感觉. 那一刻, 面具摘下了,

显现出真是的面目.

这之前, 我们都惶惑着, 惶惑得甚至不知道自己需要的究竟是什么.

直到你遇到一个人, 才恍然间了解了自己. 真正想要的, 并非当初以为的.

你惊讶于自己在对方面前表现出来的, 竟然是和过去栽然不同的你!

皆因你过去戴着面具.

缘分这东西不可强求. 该你的, 早晚是你的: 不该你的, 怎么努力也得不到.

但无论任何时候, 我们都不要绝望. 不要放弃自己对人生真惕追求.

随缘.........

随意.........

随遇.........

随喜.........　　　

因为我

难道我真的错了吗？一直以来我都觉得没有错的，我要一笑面对千夫指，还是伤心看待呢？也许我真的错了，以后会小心些的啦，人的心有时真的可以很狭窄，也可以很宽阔。伤心时，打开msn，却没有一人能陪伴你聊天，也只能孤独面对这一切了。这几天每天都有教训，而且还是不好的教训。我会记着的啦。。。

我

从今天（2009年10月12日）起，我告诉我自己我会守规矩了的。我真的很傻，原来被伤害是那么伤心的，我以后都不会了，我会乖乖了的。以后，我都会专注于发展佛教事业了！！！佛教靠我！我不会再那么傻了！原来在失意时出现安慰你的人才是你真正的朋友，才是值得你爱的人。。。

中秋

月到中秋分外明，今天是中秋节咯，一年一度的中秋节，看来很多人都已经没有像以前那样大肆庆祝了，也许一切都变了，世界变了，人也变了。。。中秋意味着我们的团圆，但愿我们都能永远在一起，但是这都是不可能的，因为我们都要为自己的理想而奋斗，我们不可能站在原点不动。我们能拥有的就是我们的回忆，我很珍惜能与你们拥有那么多的回忆，不过有时候人生不一定要拥有，享有也是一种幸福，感恩一路走来有你们陪伴我。当我在困难时，是你们给我鼓励，给我支持让我坚持都走到今天。一切在变，希望我们的心都不变，把爱传下去，让人间一样温暖。。。祝你们中秋节快乐

伤心遗憾

当你爱的东西离你而去，你会怎样呢？伤心遗憾。当你爱的人离开你了，你会怎样呢？伤心遗憾。当你要得到你很爱的东西，你却得不到，你会怎样呢？伤心遗憾。当你手上有一块钻石可卖，那钻石却给人抢了去，你能怎样？伤心遗憾。当你眼前有个黄金机会，你却因为内部的问题而被迫放弃那机会，你能怎样？伤心遗憾！！！本来是可以一起去玩得，就因为“不给","补习”而只能留在家里等发霉。对于我们这些热血沸腾的青少年，怎么可能愿意呆在家里原地不动呢！看着人家能开开心心的这边去，那边去，这边逛，那边聊，我呢？留在家里做宅男。那又什么好，难道这就是我做活动得付出的代价吗？我的整个假期都过得蛮忧郁，还带了点伤感...很多个晚上都是以泪洗脸，心中的痛又有谁能理解呢？渴望得到关怀可是总打扰着人家，最后也只好与枕头们度过那伤心的夜晚。那个回忆，已经深深的印在心里了，我不会忘记那被关着的感觉！每每盼望人家的安慰与到来，到最后都是以失望告终，我知道我不能一个人撑起半边天，但是有时候我也真的很无奈的，我也不想自己孤零零一人面对一切的，只是逼不得以罢了。心中的那遗憾又有谁能明白，又有谁能给予安慰呢？这次我不能去，不知要等到什么时候才能去了，千载难逢的机会，我却只能眼巴巴地看着机会从手中溜走。“苏洲之后没艇搭”，不知什么时候才能等到属于哪自己的艇呢...唉，我也只能望着蓝天，看着地上，想象他们在做什么，却不能亲身与她同去。看见她得自己一人度过，我却只能隔岸观火，心中有如被千万颗针刺在心上，我怪我自己怎么不能去。我更怪自己怎么那么不相信她，她的心应该很难受吧，面对自己心爱的人不相信自己，伤心，对不起。看着她一个人孤孤单单，我什么都做不到，我能做的也只是在她寂寞时信息她，所以今早我破天荒地能从闹钟声中从温暖的被窝里爬起，只盼望我能陪伴她，好让她在车上时不感到寂寞，希望她真的能开开心心的享受这旅程。但最可惜的是我不能伴在她身边，逗她开心，我知道其实她也是很伤心的。今天我过的一点也不开心，我只能想象什么事在发生，担心她不懂怎样了，最后留在家里等发霉。心中的那个遗憾不懂什么时候才能连根拔起，我想我需要一段时间。我才发现原来我给不到她幸福快乐，反而让她为我担心，为我忧虑，还真衰啊我。可惜，这一切，我只能把它收在心里当遗憾，除了这应该什么也做不到了...每个人都说还有机会，叫我不要伤心，可是我多么渴望他们能明白我的出境，这一切都不简单。明天的生日会也不知道能不能去，应该不能去到那么久了。假期也即将过去，唉，讨厌的考试也随之而来。学生生涯难道都是在书里吗？不！假期完了，哥哥也要回去了，一切又将回到了原点，我也只能盼望寂寞能偷偷的离开我的心里。我也希望我能找到自己生活中的目标与价值，更渴望可以给到她幸福。不过，我还有很多地方需要进步。生活总是这样，唉，不喜欢的东西我们还是得接受，也许这就是磨炼吧...

天空

今天的天空怎么蓝的有点忧郁，夜色也突然有点黯然。问题是出在我这里了吗？也许吧，我得加把劲好好努力改变了。。。

失败的我

假如世上没有烦恼那该有多好，不过没有烦恼人就不会成长了，怎么世界总是那么的矛盾。很多东西我们很想去做，可是我们就是不能做。我想追求我的梦想，实现我的理想，做我未做过的事情，我真的很想累积更多的经验，智慧。也许我明天就会离开这世界也说不定，我想在我还没有遗憾前做我要做的事情，难道真的那样难吗？怎么我被约束的那么严啊，也许很多东西不是我们想得那么简单，但是我真的很想趁年轻学的更多，这样生活就会充实些了，活到老学到老。为什么就不能理解，读书其实应该是件很开心的事因为可以学到很多，但是就因为考试把整个学习的过程都搞砸了。学生之所以不喜欢到学校都是因为政府和学校所谓好的制度，其实我们被压得透不过气了。考试也使到我们根本没有自由去做我们爱做的事情以便学的更多。就是因为考试，我也因为gathering付出了很多很大的代价，我哪里都不能去了。就连我敬爱的黄老师生日我都去不到了，我真的好生失望因为她是我很尊敬的老师，但是我还是被阻止去，不过我都预了是这样的结果了。我整个假期都变成了宅男，就在家里等着发霉。现在都发霉了，要开学咯，开学了就要把他们都拔掉了。哈哈。其实还有一个很难得的机会，可是我的因缘不具足，算了，我又错失了再一次的机会。。。人生总是那么的无奈，天难尽人意，地不从人心。也许这就是磨练吧，伤心落泪又怎样呢，还是得接受，还好我还有我的小日记陪我，应该没事的。。。

假期

假期本来应该是一件很开心的事，但是对我而言，假期真的是很闷，也许我不能自制，我什么也做不到，在学校有很多东西做，有一班朋友大家一起闹，一起疯狂，虽然我没有跟他们一起玩，但是看到他们酱我也是很开心的，因为我知道自己不寂寞。在学校可以学习很多很多的东西，看到很多累积更多的经验，我在想，等我以后有钱了，我要和我的老婆到处走走看看，读万卷书不如行千里路嘛，不懂以后能不能实现，老婆，你又愿不愿意呢？假期即将过去，而我什么伟业都交不出来，真可悲。我要出人头地，我要努力，我要加油！跌倒了再站起来，没有东西可以阻止我们的，只要我们肯努力，困难一定可以被克服。当我遇到了困难，我都告诉自己，这其实都是一个考验而已，我一定行的。这个假期我也想了很多，原来我自己太夜郎自大了，黄子亿啊黄子亿，不能酱，我们要谦卑些，这样才能把杯子装满啊，我要学的还多的是呢，我要改变，我不要再这样下去了，太多了，原来我是一个坏人。朋友，谢谢你们对我的照顾与关心，我很感动。我不会忘记你们的。。。

我就是我

我是你们大家都认识的子亿，也许你们不认识内心的我，因为我承认自己是个怪人。就连我自己有时也不认识我自己，怎么会酱的呢？我其实也只是一个凡人，贪嗔痴无一不缺，有时我还真讨厌我自己，为什么我会变得这个样子，我不要！我时常都控制不到心中的那个情绪，漂浮不定的情绪让我真的很难受，所以我时常都自己一个人，为了避免人家变成殃及池鱼。一个人真的那么开心，那么自在吗？！难道我就不想有人伴在身边，什么事都能告诉她吗？朋友们都各有各的忙，这我都明白，所以我在努力的把自己适应，变得独立。其实孤零零一个人真的很可怕，很可怜的，什么事都得自己扛下，又没人帮你陪你，你也只能无助的呐喊。但是有时你还是会很感动的，因为身边还有人在关心自己，原来自己不是孤独的，虽然21世纪要懂得沟通，合群的生活，但是，这也不是什么法则啊！我还是会努力做好自己的本分的，兵来将挡，水来土掩，我还是能的，加油！！！有时我真的很伤心，也许我对自己，对别人要求太高了，所以时常都会觉得失望伤心。没有人理解我不要紧，我自己明白就行了，我不需要别人来肯定我，最重要的是我自己相信我自己，“哀莫大于心死”，但是，我依然希望我爱的人，她能了解我的想法，我的处境，疼我，关心我。试问又有谁不想得到人家的关爱呢？

难忘的回忆

我终于办到了，我终于圆了我的梦，真的有如一场梦。我忙了一整个月，原来一切都是值得的，我没有浪费到我的光阴。这一路走来受了许多挫折，失败与伤感。从那一天我决定要做时，我还是轻轻松松的，因为不知天高地厚，但是时间越来越靠近了，老师们都开始催了。我真的很感恩孔那么细心那么费神的教导我，我更要谢谢我的契爷，没有他们我就不可能有今天的成长了。自从我办了这次的活动，真的感觉整个人不同了，看事情也不同了，当我看到同学再为其他活动筹备安排工作时，我看到了以前的我，我真的很感动。其实我这次办活动也算很顺利了，因为我真的遇到了很多的助缘，他们都很乐意帮我，使到我能排除万难成功把它搞好。所以，现在我也要帮助其他人，跟他们分享我的经验，让他们知道搞活动的快乐。从first meeting到活动当天，我看了很多人的脸色，受了很多气，有时还要被投诉因为没有去执行任务，不过有得有失啦，这些付出都是值得的。我也时常被爸妈念，被他们骂，不过这都是我们成长的必经之路，要成功没有shortcut，只有努力努力再努力。活动当天竟然停电了，哇，真是一个天大的考验，没想到我最怕的问题竟然出现在眼前，那时我还真的蛮担心的，我觉得是上天赐给我的考验，祂要test看我的准备功夫又几好，幸好那时都有人愿意来伸出援手，连树安老师也来看看，我真的很感动，也觉得很惭愧因为没把lagu kadet bomba练好，幸好我准备了B计划，不然我们就没有麦克风用了。我们都得到人家的赞同和喝彩，好开心哦，尤其那个迎宾舞，更是兴奋因为人家都说很好，我们流下的汗都是很值得，很开心的。虽然大家都很累了，不过我真的很感恩我的阿里们，谢谢你们的帮忙，但愿消防的那盏灯得以延续。这一路走来，让我有勇气坚强的继续走下去的是《永不退票》这首歌，“一念间的选择，一辈子的感动”，我没有后悔那么卖力去做好这次的活动，这一切的一切都是值得的。流下的汗水泪水也成就了一班冠军出来，看到他们那么开心，我的心里也是坦然一笑。比赛有赢有输，我们还是得接受，我也没办法给出八个冠军来，希望大家还是能继续努力，做好自给的本分，把爱传下去。感恩有你们，让我的回忆多姿多彩。2009年，我的回忆，我不会忘记的。

Tiring

From the day I came to form four, I didn’t even know my life will be so busy. However, I am very enjoyed during the whole process, I learnt a lot, I did a lot too, but there is one thing I did very very little, you know what, I succeed little, hehe. And yet I learnt many from my mistakes with the help of my nice teachers, maybe they will scold me sometimes and I am scare of them but I understand that they scold me is just for my own good. I sincerely thank them very much. Thank you my dearest teachers. My form 4 life is extremely busy, busy of works, commitments, uniformed body and society. I am mentally tired. I know I cannot give up anyway, I must persist in order to achieve my dream, my goal. All my members, they grow my mind, my wisdom, I feel very grateful to have them, although sometimes they do make me feel unhappy. I know such life will not be so long, it will only long for a year, just one year, after this year, that is my fighting year for my future. I don’t really think that I will get used to the life next year, as I am habituated with the hectic life. Next year what I can do is just read and study, besides luckily still got one person that can keep me company in my life. Furthermore, I have supports of my family, soowei, mr loke and many many more, I know I have to work very hard. I will work hard guys, don’t worry. Although I am stupid, I know I have to work more than others, I cannot get number one nevermind, I still can get top 10 then is enough already. At the same time I am working hard, I want to help my friends who is in trouble too, so they won’t feel lonely and helpless. I hope that 4S1 09’ will be the best memories that we ever had together. Friends, I love you…do take care

Beijing Olympic

One year old for Beijing Olympic games, hope that there are more grand and great success for all of us. Surely I wish for my first success in my activities also, my gathering. I hope that we really can make it my friend, I think this might be the last grand activity in my form four life. My sixth sense told me that you all hand nothing to me on Tuesday’s formal meeting. I really hope that what I guess are wrong. I hope you all to hand in the things I want you all to do for me, please, don’t make me disappoint again…please…when I see other body, I fell into inferior, I look back at my ability. However, I always trust fate, I think what is in front of me is all the test given by the god so as to make me tougher and stronger to face everything. I learnt many Buddhist teachings from soowei, he really taught me a lot, I never love a teacher so deep, he is the first one. Buddhist teachings make me know how to put down a thing, learn to accept and many many more. I hope that I can do better and better and at the same time, helping more and more people in my life road. 阿弥陀佛

Grateful

Today, I was hurted. The one who hurted me wasn’t anyone, they are my dearest team. They hurt me deeply. i want to thank them for letting me know that I am a failure. I failed to make them obey the rules, failed to discipline them. These few months, I am so unwilling to scold my members and my team, that is because I don’t want them to be unhappy, I want them to be enjoyed in the whole process. I think once I scold them, they will scare of me, I don’t want such environment, that is what uniformed body’s tradition. I want to break this tradition, till now I still believe that who said uniformed body must be strict. I can love my members, treat them heartily, and have a nice relationship with them. They can also respect me, why can’t? I just ask them to march, I did marching also with them, it is very hurt you know, just leave like that, what the hell attitude is that? You know you stab me seriously, when I wanna talk to you during tuition but you are unwilling to talk back to me also, I know it from your eyes, you are reluctant to see me too, so I just turn back. I never met such situation(in the morning). Almost all my team members, they really disappointed me today. They just sat there and do nothing, what for they come, what our members, we as a head we must do also! I just hope for their cooperation, the power of mine alone is very weak, we need to unite and work together for a better tomorrow! Please don’t leave me alone, we need to work together, at the same time, love our world. If you all really want me to take the jobs myself, I have no choice, I will also do it as this is my responsibility. If you all want me to step down, I will do so too, because that is my fate. If you all don’t want respect me, it is meaningless I stay there and hold the power. Anyway, the day I sit this position then I will pay my all to make it a better day for our family. I really hope that we can work hard together, and at the same time, leave a sweet and unforgettable memories for you and for me. 最后，祝福你们

My Drama Day

“This story revolves around a family. Aviva is a nice girl, however, she is not happy. Her parents are always arguing, her sister, Sandy always hangs around with bad company and worst of all. One day, Aviva is studying in her study room.”… this is what my words during drama competition, I acted as the narrator, actually I picked two roles, I was a director too. I be the narrator as we were lack of people that time, my actual job is a director. I prefer to work backstage, I am also shy to show my face on the stage too. Soowei ever told me, we have to give people happiness, give people convenience, anything good let people enjoy first and we be the last. And I think this job suits me with what soowei told me. Actually, I enjoyed playing this roles, taking care of those kids, they created a sweet memories for me, they made me learnt a lot too. I will never forget you all, my drama family. Although we have a short time be together only, but at least we have done many things together..drink herbal tea together, play around together, being motivated together, and laughed together and more importantly, we put in much effort together and cried together too. Although we lost eventually to shing chung, but I won many things too, I won friendships, I won memories, I won tears, I won respects from all my friends. I thank so much for them, my 4S1 friend, they pay so much respects and support us so much. I am really touched deeply by them. Actually, I feel very grateful to have so many things. I am contented, I have love, friendships, family, house and many many more. Thanks god, you really gave me a lot, I am so blissful now, so what I wanna do now is…help as many people as I can, whenever my friends come to me, I will try my hardest to help them de but sometimes my wisdom is not that enough so I might harm them only, haha. “No one is perfect in this world, including our own family members. So, learn to tolerate each other’s weaknesses. Whenever a problem or conflict arises, solve it in a peaceful and amicable way. Love and treasure your family, when they are still around us, while we still have the chance.” 加油！

Hear From Me Again

it is such a long time you never hear from me. i dont have much free time to write blogs here. besides, i dont have much things to say about too. recently, life is extremely busy but my teacher told me, busy is a type of nutrition for us too. although we have about 70 years to live but we should be work about 300 years so that we can learn more and more. i want to be a wise person, i am gaining my wisdom now. it is really not easy to be a good person and treat everything just the same. the heart is as quiet and calm as the water. nothing and no one can affect us. anyway, we have to try. my friend ever told me, we dont have many 10 years in our lives, so we should appreciate what we own now. we, human beings, always know how to appreciate just after we have losing it, never too late. live in our now, and treasure everything. there is nothing that will wait us forever, to make it stay with us forever, we have to work hard and sacrifice. i know we can do it, just see whether we have the determination. gambateh

2009

A new start for all of us. All of us start to become busy and throw holiday life away again. Hope that all of our life become peaceful and happy. Gambateh for all my friends. Wish you all a good start.