Tiring

From the day I came to form four, I didn’t even know my life will be so busy. However, I am very enjoyed during the whole process, I learnt a lot, I did a lot too, but there is one thing I did very very little, you know what, I succeed little, hehe. And yet I learnt many from my mistakes with the help of my nice teachers, maybe they will scold me sometimes and I am scare of them but I understand that they scold me is just for my own good. I sincerely thank them very much. Thank you my dearest teachers. My form 4 life is extremely busy, busy of works, commitments, uniformed body and society. I am mentally tired. I know I cannot give up anyway, I must persist in order to achieve my dream, my goal. All my members, they grow my mind, my wisdom, I feel very grateful to have them, although sometimes they do make me feel unhappy. I know such life will not be so long, it will only long for a year, just one year, after this year, that is my fighting year for my future. I don’t really think that I will get used to the life next year, as I am habituated with the hectic life. Next year what I can do is just read and study, besides luckily still got one person that can keep me company in my life. Furthermore, I have supports of my family, soowei, mr loke and many many more, I know I have to work very hard. I will work hard guys, don’t worry. Although I am stupid, I know I have to work more than others, I cannot get number one nevermind, I still can get top 10 then is enough already. At the same time I am working hard, I want to help my friends who is in trouble too, so they won’t feel lonely and helpless. I hope that 4S1 09’ will be the best memories that we ever had together. Friends, I love you…do take care

Beijing Olympic

One year old for Beijing Olympic games, hope that there are more grand and great success for all of us. Surely I wish for my first success in my activities also, my gathering. I hope that we really can make it my friend, I think this might be the last grand activity in my form four life. My sixth sense told me that you all hand nothing to me on Tuesday’s formal meeting. I really hope that what I guess are wrong. I hope you all to hand in the things I want you all to do for me, please, don’t make me disappoint again…please…when I see other body, I fell into inferior, I look back at my ability. However, I always trust fate, I think what is in front of me is all the test given by the god so as to make me tougher and stronger to face everything. I learnt many Buddhist teachings from soowei, he really taught me a lot, I never love a teacher so deep, he is the first one. Buddhist teachings make me know how to put down a thing, learn to accept and many many more. I hope that I can do better and better and at the same time, helping more and more people in my life road. 阿弥陀佛

Grateful

Today, I was hurted. The one who hurted me wasn’t anyone, they are my dearest team. They hurt me deeply. i want to thank them for letting me know that I am a failure. I failed to make them obey the rules, failed to discipline them. These few months, I am so unwilling to scold my members and my team, that is because I don’t want them to be unhappy, I want them to be enjoyed in the whole process. I think once I scold them, they will scare of me, I don’t want such environment, that is what uniformed body’s tradition. I want to break this tradition, till now I still believe that who said uniformed body must be strict. I can love my members, treat them heartily, and have a nice relationship with them. They can also respect me, why can’t? I just ask them to march, I did marching also with them, it is very hurt you know, just leave like that, what the hell attitude is that? You know you stab me seriously, when I wanna talk to you during tuition but you are unwilling to talk back to me also, I know it from your eyes, you are reluctant to see me too, so I just turn back. I never met such situation(in the morning). Almost all my team members, they really disappointed me today. They just sat there and do nothing, what for they come, what our members, we as a head we must do also! I just hope for their cooperation, the power of mine alone is very weak, we need to unite and work together for a better tomorrow! Please don’t leave me alone, we need to work together, at the same time, love our world. If you all really want me to take the jobs myself, I have no choice, I will also do it as this is my responsibility. If you all want me to step down, I will do so too, because that is my fate. If you all don’t want respect me, it is meaningless I stay there and hold the power. Anyway, the day I sit this position then I will pay my all to make it a better day for our family. I really hope that we can work hard together, and at the same time, leave a sweet and unforgettable memories for you and for me. 最后，祝福你们